How we cite our quotes: (Chapter.Paragraph)
Quote #10
Yes, I still had feelings for Aspen. I couldn't undo that. But if I couldn't be with him, then what was holding me back from being with Maxon? (18.196)
It's not until the back half of the novel that America fully understands how her feelings towards Aspen have been holding her back, preventing her from making herself vulnerable and taking a chance with Maxon. In other words, her feelings towards Aspen have, in her mind, kept her from being free.