Giovanni's Room Choices Quotes

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Quote #10

Then something opened in my brain, a secret, noiseless door swung open, frightening me: it had not occurred to me until that instant that, in fleeing from his body, I confirmed and perpetuated his body's power over me. (2.4.228)

What is the choice that David wants to have but does not? Doesn't he want to be able to choose whom he is attracted to? How can he not want to be in love with Giovanni and yet still be in love with him? Since David is in love with Giovanni whether he admits it or not, do his choices even matter?